Hey... it has been along time since i updated my blog...
well... i had alot of things to update but i was juz a bit lazy to update my blog...
Well.. this year seems to be the year which totally brought me down
alot of unexpected things happen... alot of pain and sadness...
when i reach at the state of happiness it pulls me down...
I could still climb to reach the happiness that time...
NOW.... it totally pull me to a stage where it is hard to smile or even be positive...
ALOT OF PAIN,SADNESS,DISAPPOINTMENT AND LONELINESS INSIDE ME!!!
Damn.... i am not sure i am a HERO anymore...
I am not sure weather i can be positive anymore...
Will i ever find my true self??
I am Totally lost... lost in the dark... i am able to see the light at the end of the road...
but when i keep walking towards the light it seems like it is getting further away from me...
when i reach to the light... i suddenly fall back to the dark and lonely path...
should i give up?? should i let the darkness win over me?? should i let the sadness win over me??
Has all my Hard work gone into the drain??
SHOULD I TOTALLY GIVE UP EVERYTHING??
Wait.... what am i thinking?? why am i thinking this way??
What is wrong me??
I am becoming a human toy to ppl.... they think they can mess wf my feelings...
my heart and my feelings...
i am getting blame for things which i dun do...
i am getting blame for being kind...
i am getting blame for be their friend....
i am getting blame for trying to make a person smile..
i am getting blame for trying to be myself...
LET ME SAY SOMETHINGS TO THOSE PPL!!!!!!
I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PRETEND TO BE OTHERS!!!!
I CAN'T BE LIKE THE PERSON WHO U LIKE OR WHATEVER!!!!
i only can be myself... it feels funny not being your ownself...
~*KuMaR*~26*~*NaDhA*~
