Hey...
It has been a week or so since i have wrote...
Today was a boring day...
Didn't go anywhere....
Yesterday was really a great day for me...
Yesterday North Titans had a friendly match against some team...
We won 14 - 1, i Scored 5 Goals... assist abit here and there...
But the best part was it rained at the correct moment... when i was really quite down...
When i scored my 3rd goal the rain suddenly stop..
That was the moment where i forgot all my pain and sadness for a while...
After scoring the 5 th goal... i got slight injury on my right Ankle but is all good now..
Left all alone in a dark,quite and rainy place
Crying in pain and misery
As the rain pours on me
the tear and rain droplet mix and falls to the ground....
Looking at the ground seeing my own reflection with no one beside...
As i slowly rise my head up turning to the East looking for someone
but there wasn't anyone.. So i turn my head to the West looking for someone...
But there wasn't anyone too... So i turn my head to the North looking for someone
But there wasn't anyone there too... I turn my whole body to the South Hoping And praying
Someone was there... But there wasn't anyone there too...
Crying in pain i countine too walk in that lonely,dark and rainy place....
with no shelter or clothes to keep me warm and with no people around me to cheer me up...
hoping some day that will all change
Hoping a shelter or clothes to keep me warm
Hoping someone will be at my side...
Hoping you will be at my side...
Hoping happiness will be there too...
Hoping Life would change from Worst to Good...
I WILL FIGHT TILL THE VERY END...
I WILL NEVER GIVE UP
NO MATTER WHAT....
~*KuMaR*~*26*~*NaHdA*~
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
06 August 09
Yesterday was a wild day for me.
I was having a high fever in the afternoon.
i thought it was just normal fever a rest might have lower my temperature.
But it didn't at all, It kept raising and raising until about 40 Degree.
I was totally shock that i was able to walk.
My Bro Yu Xuan said "why did u come to school when i was not feeling well".
So i reply "it started just."
He told me to go home but i didn't want to go at all.
I was totally disappointed with myself for not able to help My Bros in the kite event.
Told K.y that i was not feeling well.
He say he was going to complain to Mr Darren.
But i stop him, he went around asking for pendol.
Thanks alot K.y.
But no one had pandol at all.
after the dissmial K.y went to Dom and said I was not feeling well.
Dom Yelled at me and force me to go to the Doctor.
I told him not today maybe tomorrow since i didn't hve any cash in my hand.
He said he didn't care at all. He wants me to go see a doctor Now.
Then i said ok.
Dom and K.y paid for me for see the doctor.
Thanks alot guys. You Guys Rock.
Msg some of my friends.
They told me to take care thanks alot guys for the reply.
I will somehow pay you guys back.
To get you Guys as friends i will never regret.
~*KuMaR*~*26*~*NaHdA*~
I was having a high fever in the afternoon.
i thought it was just normal fever a rest might have lower my temperature.
But it didn't at all, It kept raising and raising until about 40 Degree.
I was totally shock that i was able to walk.
My Bro Yu Xuan said "why did u come to school when i was not feeling well".
So i reply "it started just."
He told me to go home but i didn't want to go at all.
I was totally disappointed with myself for not able to help My Bros in the kite event.
Told K.y that i was not feeling well.
He say he was going to complain to Mr Darren.
But i stop him, he went around asking for pendol.
Thanks alot K.y.
But no one had pandol at all.
after the dissmial K.y went to Dom and said I was not feeling well.
Dom Yelled at me and force me to go to the Doctor.
I told him not today maybe tomorrow since i didn't hve any cash in my hand.
He said he didn't care at all. He wants me to go see a doctor Now.
Then i said ok.
Dom and K.y paid for me for see the doctor.
Thanks alot guys. You Guys Rock.
Msg some of my friends.
They told me to take care thanks alot guys for the reply.
I will somehow pay you guys back.
To get you Guys as friends i will never regret.
~*KuMaR*~*26*~*NaHdA*~
Saturday, August 1, 2009
1 August 09
It has been couple of days since i wrote.
Today morning i was at home, thinking about tomorrows soccer tournament
aiming to be Champs.
Then i receive a SMS saying "there would be training today afternoon"
So i when for the "training" there were some people over there using the field
so we asked them if we could have a match with them.
I didn't play for the first match though because i was a bit lazy.
after the match was over we had another match.
This time i played because the team was a bit challenging.
I had fun playing against team.
i assisted one beautiful goal, Nearly scored a goal.
then i became a bit piss off since my team didn't play well.
Conceding more then 4 goals.
So i decided to become the goalkeeper.
I saved a lot of goals and broke then attacking ways.
nearly got injured well trying to save on a 2 on 1 situation.
Manage to keep a clean sheet though.
But was just a bit disappointed with the team and myself.
Just feeling so down this few weeks or months.
I am really trying my best to smile and stay positive
but i can't, i keep falling down.
It just to hard to live in a place and world like mine.
Where all the odds are against you.
I have never gave up you no matter what.
I just want to see you smile that is all with him.
That is why i am not fighting for you now.
For now he can make you smile not me.
I can't do anything to make you smile.
But i know you are trying to fade me away from your life
If that makes you happy, i will fade myself away from your life.
But let you know, I will never fade you away from my life no matter what.
~*KuMaR*~*26*~*NaHdA*~
Today morning i was at home, thinking about tomorrows soccer tournament
aiming to be Champs.
Then i receive a SMS saying "there would be training today afternoon"
So i when for the "training" there were some people over there using the field
so we asked them if we could have a match with them.
I didn't play for the first match though because i was a bit lazy.
after the match was over we had another match.
This time i played because the team was a bit challenging.
I had fun playing against team.
i assisted one beautiful goal, Nearly scored a goal.
then i became a bit piss off since my team didn't play well.
Conceding more then 4 goals.
So i decided to become the goalkeeper.
I saved a lot of goals and broke then attacking ways.
nearly got injured well trying to save on a 2 on 1 situation.
Manage to keep a clean sheet though.
But was just a bit disappointed with the team and myself.
Just feeling so down this few weeks or months.
I am really trying my best to smile and stay positive
but i can't, i keep falling down.
It just to hard to live in a place and world like mine.
Where all the odds are against you.
This few weeks it has been raining heavily as it rain i walk under rain
As the rain hits my face and touches the ground so as my tears.
I have never gave up you no matter what.
I just want to see you smile that is all with him.
That is why i am not fighting for you now.
For now he can make you smile not me.
I can't do anything to make you smile.
But i know you are trying to fade me away from your life
If that makes you happy, i will fade myself away from your life.
But let you know, I will never fade you away from my life no matter what.
~*KuMaR*~*26*~*NaHdA*~
Sunday, July 26, 2009
26 July 09
Hey, it has been along time since i have post.
hm what should i blog about today?
let me start from 24 July.
On 24 July was TAN YANHAO B'DAY aka (CM)
hehes, wish him and disturb him on that day hehes.
I am just disappointed that i didn't have the cash to go for his party.
someone of them said they would pay for me but i said don't want.
Because they pay for my expenses nearly alot of staff since the day i enter to ITE
thanks alot my brothers, friends and Ms Angelia for helping me in my finances.
On the 25 July 09, Had a soccer match yesterday it was a disappointing match.
the team didn't play as well as i thought they would.
But on the bright side i scored a beautiful goal with a assist from Arfard =D.
Today, Is my b'day receive a sms came at 0000 hrs was very happy that someone remember
my b'day after 2 am, i receive another sms, after that i didn't get any wishes. around 2 pm i receive sms and IM from my friends.
Was totally sad that my parents never wished me a HAPPY B'DAY at all =(
What i told was true, I am totally
"LEFT ALL ALONE IN A LONELY PATH"
"SEEING NOTHING BUT A DARK AND COOL PATH'
"HURTING AND CRYING IN PAIN INSIDE MY HEART"
Guess Pain and Sadness Is my life....
Guess i got to live this pain and sadness by myself
~*KuMaR*~*26*~*NaDhA*~
Sunday, July 5, 2009
5 July 09
HeyHey..... Today is my friends b'day Yu Xuan....
Happy B'day Yu Xuan.... sorry man... i can't buy anything for u =(
Hope you have a great day today =D
Walking in alonely path a never ending path see nothing but just lights lit on the path.
Carrying the bag of sadness and pain on my back and walking towards the end of the path.
As i keep walking to find the end of the path, i had alot of wall infront of me blocking my way
to find the end of path.
I tried breaking them down but it seems the more i try to break them down there more walls
infront of me blocking my way.
What should i do? should i juz give up and walk away? or should i keep breaking those things
down to find what is at the end of the path?
while walking i trip fell on my knees, I force myself up to continue my journey.
with those blood flowing from knees i continue my journey to find the end of the path.
Will I ever reach that path?? it is unkown.
Will i Lose more people which i care and love?
When i reach the end of that path will I smile or will i cry in pain?
Hoping that someone will be there waiting for me.
~*KuMaR*~*26*~*NaDhA*~
Happy B'day Yu Xuan.... sorry man... i can't buy anything for u =(
Hope you have a great day today =D
Walking in alonely path a never ending path see nothing but just lights lit on the path.
Carrying the bag of sadness and pain on my back and walking towards the end of the path.
As i keep walking to find the end of the path, i had alot of wall infront of me blocking my way
to find the end of path.
I tried breaking them down but it seems the more i try to break them down there more walls
infront of me blocking my way.
What should i do? should i juz give up and walk away? or should i keep breaking those things
down to find what is at the end of the path?
while walking i trip fell on my knees, I force myself up to continue my journey.
with those blood flowing from knees i continue my journey to find the end of the path.
Will I ever reach that path?? it is unkown.
Will i Lose more people which i care and love?
When i reach the end of that path will I smile or will i cry in pain?
Hoping that someone will be there waiting for me.
~*KuMaR*~*26*~*NaDhA*~
Saturday, June 27, 2009
27 JuNe 09
Hey... it has been along time since i updated my blog...
well... i had alot of things to update but i was juz a bit lazy to update my blog...
Well.. this year seems to be the year which totally brought me down
alot of unexpected things happen... alot of pain and sadness...
when i reach at the state of happiness it pulls me down...
I could still climb to reach the happiness that time...
NOW.... it totally pull me to a stage where it is hard to smile or even be positive...
ALOT OF PAIN,SADNESS,DISAPPOINTMENT AND LONELINESS INSIDE ME!!!
Damn.... i am not sure i am a HERO anymore...
I am not sure weather i can be positive anymore...
Will i ever find my true self??
I am Totally lost... lost in the dark... i am able to see the light at the end of the road...
but when i keep walking towards the light it seems like it is getting further away from me...
when i reach to the light... i suddenly fall back to the dark and lonely path...
should i give up?? should i let the darkness win over me?? should i let the sadness win over me??
Has all my Hard work gone into the drain??
SHOULD I TOTALLY GIVE UP EVERYTHING??
Wait.... what am i thinking?? why am i thinking this way??
What is wrong me??
I am becoming a human toy to ppl.... they think they can mess wf my feelings...
my heart and my feelings...
i am getting blame for things which i dun do...
i am getting blame for being kind...
i am getting blame for be their friend....
i am getting blame for trying to make a person smile..
i am getting blame for trying to be myself...
LET ME SAY SOMETHINGS TO THOSE PPL!!!!!!
I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PRETEND TO BE OTHERS!!!!
I CAN'T BE LIKE THE PERSON WHO U LIKE OR WHATEVER!!!!
i only can be myself... it feels funny not being your ownself...
~*KuMaR*~26*~*NaDhA*~
well... i had alot of things to update but i was juz a bit lazy to update my blog...
Well.. this year seems to be the year which totally brought me down
alot of unexpected things happen... alot of pain and sadness...
when i reach at the state of happiness it pulls me down...
I could still climb to reach the happiness that time...
NOW.... it totally pull me to a stage where it is hard to smile or even be positive...
ALOT OF PAIN,SADNESS,DISAPPOINTMENT AND LONELINESS INSIDE ME!!!
Damn.... i am not sure i am a HERO anymore...
I am not sure weather i can be positive anymore...
Will i ever find my true self??
I am Totally lost... lost in the dark... i am able to see the light at the end of the road...
but when i keep walking towards the light it seems like it is getting further away from me...
when i reach to the light... i suddenly fall back to the dark and lonely path...
should i give up?? should i let the darkness win over me?? should i let the sadness win over me??
Has all my Hard work gone into the drain??
SHOULD I TOTALLY GIVE UP EVERYTHING??
Wait.... what am i thinking?? why am i thinking this way??
What is wrong me??
I am becoming a human toy to ppl.... they think they can mess wf my feelings...
my heart and my feelings...
i am getting blame for things which i dun do...
i am getting blame for being kind...
i am getting blame for be their friend....
i am getting blame for trying to make a person smile..
i am getting blame for trying to be myself...
LET ME SAY SOMETHINGS TO THOSE PPL!!!!!!
I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PRETEND TO BE OTHERS!!!!
I CAN'T BE LIKE THE PERSON WHO U LIKE OR WHATEVER!!!!
i only can be myself... it feels funny not being your ownself...
~*KuMaR*~26*~*NaDhA*~
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
15 April 09
Today was a disappointing day....
Due to my ankle injury... my ankle swell...
i could not walk properly...
because of this i missed my school!!!!
DAMN!!!!! Stupid injury....
Hate it when i get injured...
Haixz...
what is done is done... can't change it...
hope the injury will recover as soon as possible...
so as my Broken injuries in life.....
~*KuMaR*~26*~NaDhA*~
Due to my ankle injury... my ankle swell...
i could not walk properly...
because of this i missed my school!!!!
DAMN!!!!! Stupid injury....
Hate it when i get injured...
Haixz...
what is done is done... can't change it...
hope the injury will recover as soon as possible...
so as my Broken injuries in life.....
~*KuMaR*~26*~NaDhA*~
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